Ni hidup aku .

This is my life . Kau apa kesah ? Eh pelik la . sukahati mak bapak kandung kau je nak control hidup aku . Sorry la bang , aku tak suka dicontrol . And aku memang bukan jenis suka lelaki PlayBoy macam kau . Oh shit , kau ingat senang ke aku nak terima someone sekarang ? Broo , hati aku pernah dihiris hiris by someone yangg tak ada perasaan la . So , its hard for me to accept someone like you . # grammar broken .

And sorry la , aku dah tak percaya manusia yang berjantina lelaki lagi . Enoughla dia seorg je yang buat aku sakit hati . Dahlahh , aku dah taknak ber-couple lagi :) No man no cry , beybehh :')

 # Ehem ehem , kbaii :*

last farewell .

Finally , ini yang awak mahu kan ? Putuskan hubungan kita kan ? okayy , we've done here . You know what ,

I need you more than anyone . KBYE .

for : SS

you've changed .

Semakin hari semakin berubah perangai awak . I know what you thinking about me . awak serabut gila ngn saya kan kann ? Saya bukan perempuan pilihan awak pun . Awak text saya pun macam terpaksa dah . mesej awak pun pendek pendek dah . Tak seperti dulu . Dulu awak text saya , mesti saya senyum sorang2 . But sekarang , awak buat saya nangis . Lelaki semua sama kann ? Bila dah lama kaple , mesti rasa borink kan . Saya selalu fikirkan tentang awak . tengok mesej awak yang dulu . Fyi , SAYA MACAM DULU LAGI . awak ? BERUBAH TERUSS . Are you still remember all of this ? first time kita kenal . first time kita jumpa . first time kita pegang tangan . first time saya kiss tangan awak . cincin yang saya bagi kat awak . awak marahmarah manja kat saya . awak pujuk saya . awak kol saya for the first time . awak janjijanji atas nama Allah dengan saya . you told me how much you loves me so . tapi sekarang ? Like i said to you . You've changed . Please , I want the old of you . Where are you ? I feel like " Ado gewe supo tkdok gewe " dah . :( So sad . In my mind everyday , " maybe dio ado huk lain doh . maybe jugok dio nok clash ngn aku tpi tak sapa hati . and maybe jugok la dio ingat janji2 atah namo Tuhey tu " Bakpo ngn aku ni ? --'
By the wayy , Awak suka buat saya sakit hati . But , I'm still loves you like I said to you before , sayang . But you ? Hm , tak tahu la . I know , Saya manja gilaa ngn awak . Suka ngaju . kei ? then , awk start puah doh ngn sayo . Pleaseeeee la , kalu awk puah ngn saya , please oyak sy . PLEASE ? Im begging you . Saya tnyo , awk msti kata dok . Bkpo perlunyo awk nipu saya ? Bkpo bena ? Awk tk prlu jaga hati saya . Hati sy lamo doh terluka . Kalu awak nok putuh ngn sy , sy Redha . And saya nok sangat NOK SANGAT SANGAT awak buat satu benda untuk saya . Pleaseeee , ingat balik janjijanji awak ngn saya . Please , I'm begging you so much .
Saya takley hidup tnpa awak . :( and saya ingt kata2 awak smalam .. " Sayo sie ko awok sebab awok suh pehei prasa'e awok kei sebabtu sy top4 " okayy , awk .. saya tak paksa pn . Awk terpaksa kei ? Awk lhni tk rindu saya pn bena kei ? Lohni , awk muak tengok saya msej awk skmo kei ? Macei skrang la . awk mesej sy dok ? dok pn kei ? last msj awk " Ikuk la " . awk , cu awk mikir . gapo huk awk text sy ? awk text gni jah sy ho , ikuk la , duk sajo , dok  , tk puah , thu eh , tao . and awak bagi FAKE HOPE . macei , skrng la . now , saya batuk , selesama , demam . and awak akey kato " esok sia la tuh " . Where are you when I need youu ? and awak mengelak dari saya kei ? awak try not to contact me kei ?

sayang , saya teringat janji awak huk nih . " b janji atah nama Allah , b takkan tinggal bby " 
yaaaaaaa ,awak tak tinggal saya . tpi , awak tkdok smaso sy prlu awk . saya ingat maso awak kato awak jerik kei ? saya sero bersalah gilovavi bena . b , I want the old of you . The one who cares me the most . The one who always there when I need you . The one who loves me than anyone can do that for me . and now ? You've changed . And I don't know how to solve this . But , I want you to know that , I love you so fucking damn much .

And who do you think you are? 
Runnin' 'round leaving scars 
Collecting your jar of hearts 
And tearing love apart :(

**errr , tak tahu bakpo jadi gini bena . 

I miss my superboyy *err , gedikk kau .

Awak awak :( Saya rindu awak gilavavi tauu . Awak tak tahu ke ? Kenapa awak tak text saya ? Tak text lasum tau . Saya tunggu mesej awak . Tapi takde pn . Mana awak ? Saya rindu awak laa . Tolong la faham . Grr . Okaybyee . --' Gendikz gila'z kot'z . err-- Suka hati laa ! 

Awakk , I really really miss youu . I feel like awak tinggalkan saya tau . Please , don't break my heart :( Awakkkkkkk ! Contact la sayaaa . :| 

and you will sayy jela mung , sa --' . Heyyy , suka hatii laaa ! saya yang Jelaa not youu !  eeww , gedik kau , sa . wahh , sukahati weii ! Prasan la kau , sa . walaweiii , mapuh gi la mung .

HAHA . sorry , mood saya harini mix sikit . Act , i really miss you like a year without rain ! Wahh , gitu . kbye-

You you , nak tahu tak ? em , tknk sudah . Nak ? okay . Saya kan kannnn , selsema kot :( Then , kulit saya terbakar tadi . Sebab panas . Melecur . Tapi saya tak nangis . HEEE :D saya manja dengan awak je , sayang :')

awakk , saya rinduu saat kita dating tuu . hehe , pegang tangan awakk . Stare mata awakk . Jalan jalan dengan awakk . Ohmyy , I feel better with youu :) awak , I have a few questions to you . Please answer it honestly , okay ? 

1. Are you still loves me like you said to me , dear ?
2. Are you truthly love me ? 

err - Sayang , saya taknak fikir bukanbukan kat awak . But , you've changed :( and I want you answer it honestly . Saya sayang awak macam saya sayang nyawa saya tauu . I barely breathing when you're not here with me . Truthly from my heart , deep inside , you are my only one :) Saya tak tengok pun laki lain . SUMPAH ! tak tengok . Sebab awak cukup perfect dah . Sayang busy ea ? okayy , takpelahh . Gudluck exam :) Muah . I'll always love you no matter what happens :) 

I Will Never Find Another Lover 
Sweeter Than You 
And I Will Never Find Another Lover 
More Precious Than You  
Boy , You Are.. 
Close To Me You're Like My Mother, 
Close To Me You're Like My Father, 
Close To Me You're Like My Sister, 
Close To Me You're Like My Brother 
And You Are The Only One My Everything 
And For You This Song I Sing :)

-Sweetie , I love youu :')

Why you need me , sayang ?

Sayang , why you must need me ? act , You have another perfect girls to replace my place . Why you don't break our relationship ? Why you must go on hurts my heart and make my heart being a small pieces ? Why you must told that you still love me ? but you have another girls . Why I need to crying ? Why you make me feel like I'm the one for you ? You must think about that . Don't think that I'm dull just because of I'm crying . Baby , My heart hurts ! Please understand me :( I love you so much . Nobody knows about that . My heart just fills with your names . My heart longs for you, my soul dies for you, 
my eyes cry for you, my empty arms reach out for you . And yesterday you just told me that finally you realised that you really really can't live without me . But why must I trust all your words ? You're the apple of my eyes . The favour of my eyes . When I need you . Are you will stay beside me ? You , please tell me the truth . Are you still loves me ? Then tell me , who am I in your life . Why you need me in ur life ? Are you cares about me ? PLEASE , LET ME KNOW :(

- i love you . and you ? Nobody knows . Just God knows it .. Please understand my situation . and now , I need you but where you go ? :(

Haa , luah kat status . Haha . Bodo . tak napok ? wak zoom laa . 

* Sha , mung tak sabek pun deh ?

Gini crito dio , 

Payoh nok cerito . Tapi biar nok crito jugok . Crito hott kei . Hot ko sek moteng heh ? 

haa , ayat sedak . Meta " Sayo suko saeng ngan budok kelas neh kecuali sek lyssa "  . 

Wooooooooot , neh pun mujo Yotuh oyak kapku jah . Kalu dok gak , pah mapuh aku keno b--do ! 

Eh , syarr-- ! Mung sero hebak ko ? wehh , sedar la diri tu sikitt deh ? aku mitok tolong sedar diri sikitt jah . Secipuk pun takpo . asalkan mung sedar gapo huk mung duk ngato katku kup blakei . Pah sek sek nate nate bodo bodo mung tuu , beci katku . okayy , so whatt ? Aku tak kisah eh . Asalkan sek mung tahu la deh , Sek aku pun becii gilo taik anying eh ko sek mung ! Dohla jelaa makaney ore . Sedar la . Kito manusio , jangei duk jela sangat gak huk ore . Okay , one more thing darla , Saeng mung namo gedio doh ? tak ingat aku . Huk putih bia ho lah , meme HO LAH , jangei duk koya bagus sangat la dei ? And and , sek PA-- tu , jange duk sero debey sangat la dei duk kelah gubak punn deh ? Aku baik skadar saeng jah ngan sek mung , jangei ingat mung buleh naik atah palo aku deh ? And sek aku ado sorey duk kelah gigih . Nur ilhami .Gak , ikuk dio la nok masuk kelah aku sokmo pun . Mugo mulo dio kelah aku gak tuu . Padei muko doh sek mung keno mapuh atah palo keii ? Dei sek mung wak jahak , kito balah jugok la . So lagii , sek mung gegey , aku larey , sek mung duk senyak dok ? Dok kei ? senyak sekadar duo tigo saat jahh . Haa , so lagi , teacher ado kato Kalu ado huk bantah gapo huk aku suruh , oyak teacher . Pah sek mung wak gapo ? buat la jugok kei ? Tapi gak lepah tuh mung wak gapo katku ? Ngupak kei ? wooot , sero macei popular la pulok duk kelah tuh . Jadi barey topik ngupak sokmo stiap hari . Zzz . aku malah bena nok cari doso ngan sek mung . Tapi gak , sek mung cari duluh . Aku gak cari jugok laa . 

Arituh , FYI aku gi cari cikgu B . okayy , a.k.a cikgu practical huk terbaik tersportim la . Aku g cri dio , tak jupo . Gi cari sapa duo maso math aku tak masuk . Pah aku nok masuk maso nok abih math tuh , sek mung tgok pelik jah . woooot , macei aku tak tahu . Sek mung meme beci aku sejak aku terpilih lagi kei ? Eh hello ? sapo pilih aku ? Buke sek mung jugok eh ? Peyo suh undi aku ? Aii , Nok maroh weii . Ho , aku malah . Nyo malah la mugo kelah tingkat 4 . peyo nok turun naik turun naik . Pahh , Pendek ngn pendek samo taraf tu dulu lagi sebut namo aku ngn mcyah ko cikgu math keii ? Ho takpo lagi staro tu . Neh ado seko huk gilo , ugut Penolong a.k.a my suh Oyak my masuk kul 1 . ehh , pukul 1 tu dio duk bilik guru lagii deh ! Ingat sikit ! Kalu tak tahu , wak caro tak tahu ! Andd , sek mung oyak cikgu maso awal . Cikgu tuh masuk nok kul 1 deh ! Maso tuh , aku ado lagii . Mung jah butoo gedebek ! GRR-- . Okbye , aku meme kejam . sejak azali lagi . so whatt ? -,- So lagi , ek-- a-- tuh , jangei duk jeling sapa takdok mato itey mung tuh la deh ? Tak mati eh mung jeling sapa juling matomato kapku . Wuu , bodobodo ! Sedar la diri tuh belako . 

Mung hidup dalei kelah tuh , staro Tuu jah deh . Jangey duk berlagak mung tuu hebak , pandai , ganah la deh.

" Kalau perangai dah macam mak syaitan , let's bye go die la , der :) "

Kbye , sedak luahh sinih . Pakat baco la deh ? xD  Pfftt , tkdok maso nok ngupak daley blog bena . 

Tapi gak  , panah hati etep :) 

Kbye :)